starting over!

I think that the title is meaningful to many  people. I have been in that phase for 2 years now. I have been walking down a path not knowing exactly where God was taking  me. I have questioned Him many times, thought that He didn't know what He was doing and thought about just doing what I thought I "needed" to do. Looking back over the last 2 years, I see the times that I was doing what I wanted and not what God wanted. The times that I took control were the darkest but God gave me a light. Let me just tell you what my last 2 years have been like: Lost my job, lost my father-in-law suddenly, my mother was diagnosed with brain cancer, and my son got kicked out of school.
Now all of these things were the "darkest hours" but when I look back now I can see the light through the darkness. When I lost my job after 15years to the same employer, I thought that I would just go get another job. Well that wasn't so easy! God had a plan! I lost my job in April and my father-in-law died in July. After his death there was so much to do and I was able to help the family with anything they needed. I got to spend quiet time in thought and with God for many weeks cleaning and sorting "Pop" things. (thank you) In February of 2012, my mother found out she had brain cancer and had surgery. I was able to be at the hospital with mom and go to chemo and doctor appointments with her. When my son was "kicked" out of school we started home schooling. There are days that I want to find another school for him but we manage to get through the day and he is doing so much better with grades and he is  learning the way that he needs to learn and not the way the government wants  him to learn.
 Looking back my human thought with all of this was darkness, but God had a plan and that was for me to "start over" and be available.
Now let me tell you that this wasn't easy- not by a long shot but God has pulled us through the emotions and financial burdens. I continue to struggle daily with what I think I should do and with finances but everyday God shows me His way. THANK YOU GOD!
Not only have we begun to home school but I am able to quilt. I am going to post a few of the quilts that I have been able to complete.
Hopefully I can remember to post on a regular basis.
Remember that God has a plan and starting over is not a bad thing.